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Despair

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I've been down with the "superflu" for the past several weeks and it really took a lot out of me. During the second week of this draining experience, I was so exhausted and miserable that I can only describe my feeling as the beginnings of "despair."

I was starting to think that I was never going to get better, never going to be able to eat, breathe or swallow again. I remembered that it was a virus like this that started this whole fibromyalgia thing and I started thinking that maybe I'd get even sicker. I was praying to get back to my normal old fibromyalgia!!!

I realized that I could either feel sorry for myself and allow this feeling to take over, which would make a very negative impact on my emotional, spiritual and physical health, or I could ask for Divine assistance in overcoming this horrible, lonely, desperate feeling. So, I decided to do my breathing exercises (as best as I could, seeing as I couldn't breathe!). I tried breathing in the White Light and breathing out the illness. It didn't work. I couldn't do it. I tried over and over to bring the feeling of the Divine into my being so that I could feel the light and start to feel better, but it just wouldn't come. The more I worked at it, the more I realized that I was too weak to do it alone.

I knew that letting myself become frightened would not help the situation so I thought about the problem for a few minutes (while fighting off the temptation to sink into despair).
While I was thinking (I think I was actually praying), a voice told me to relax and let my angels take care of me. The voice assured me that my guardian angles are here for me when things get too rough and that I never need feel alone.

I relaxed and felt their loving presence and I started to feel better. I realized that I was able to do my breathing exercises--breathe in the good, breathe out the bad. Soon, I was filled with happiness and Light and I knew all would be well again. I felt much better, both physically and emotionally the next morning.

When you feel like giving in, when the pain gets to be too much, don't give in to it. Ask for Divine guidance. You have so many loving guardian angels around you and they are there for you. They will help you connect with the Universe. Just listen and let yourself feel the love and guidance. It will come if you let it.

Blessings,
Liz